January 30, 2010

LRT2

Everybody knows that I'm trying to move on with that person who I liked but.. hayy. I remember it was January 22nd, a Monday.

I thought it would just be one ordinary day for me as I ride the train to the office. When I was off to the exit of the train station (LRT Cubao), to my surprise, I saw Rocket* (not the real name). I thought I was over that person pero nung nakita ko siya, I felt clumsy. I've had intimidations. My heart pumped so fast. Grabe. Ang sakit parin pala.

For your information, Rocket is someone who stole my heart for the longest time. And since I'm torpe, I can't tell that person how I really feel about 'that person' (haha). For keeps. We're really just meant to be friends ata e.

What hurts me the most e yung peste kong mp3 player. Like coincidence or not, it played our song. What I need by Deepside. Haha. If you could've only seen me that moment. I was emotional. I felt like dying. Parang gusto ko siyang lapitan, pero my Rocket's moving so fast like in a rush to go to the office. Sana napahinto ko man lang siya para sabihan ng I miss you, sabay hug ng mahigpit :/

Another emo moment brought to you by blogspot. Haha. Hayop :c

Friday madness

Oh gosh, I guess I broke the rule of blogging. They said that when you have this very important event (like a milestone) in your life and you have a blog, you should IMMEDIATELY create an entry about it. Haha. Wow. I'm truly one hardheaded rule breaker :D


Lately, I've been going in and out of life. I've had one good time with my girlfriends last January 22nd. We (Renessa, Anika and me) went to trinoma for some good time after our weekly Saint Jude novena routine. And we have so much fun!

The chill-time we had was for our friend Renessa because she felt bad after not getting the chance to be a nurse at one of the hospitals she applied for. So, friends to the rescue! We took her out. I'm such a friend see? Haha. We played at timezone trinoma, had coffee, sang at the videoke hub, and so much more! Please check out my facebook account for pictures.

Enough of that. So last night I went out for some date. Hehe. Wala lang. I had so much fun. Basta. More info when sipagin uli akong magkwento :P

January 18, 2010

VTO.. When will I quit?

Ahaha. And this question has been running in my mind for the longest time.

VTO (Voluntary Time Out) is one thing that you do when you feel so lazy to complete your shift at work. Also known as Early Out.

And for 4 days, I've been buying for VTO. Grabe, eh ano nalang suswelduhin ko nito? Haha. This has to stop. Could anybody tell me how? I think I need a rehab :D

So for this day, I went VTO to join my bestfriend Jace cut his hair at bench fix Santa Lucia (which is an old but great mall. Ang laki!). Ayun, we had fun as always. And we transformed! We bought contact lenses. It's Mist, grayish something. And it looks good on us. I love it.

Haha. I just wish after all these VTO's I had eh wag akong magsisi. Haha. I'm just enjoying life anyway, anything wrong with that? :)

Everybody's free to wear Sunscreen


I get a lot of advice throughout life but nothing compares to this one. It's a song, but there's no singing. Haha, it's not weird though. I find it clever. Genius. Brilliant.

This one is titled "Everybody's free to wear sunscreen" by Baz Luhrman. Heard it some time ago while I was on my way to work (thanks to DJ Pat of Magic 89.9). And I think this is worth posting. Only wise guys love this song. So if you wanted to be wise as well, you better love this, or be.. uhm, unwise? Haha. Stupid :D

Wait. I think it's best if you download this song first (and that's your problem na ha? Haha).

"Everybody's free to wear Sunscreen"
by Baz Luhrman

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '99...

Wear Sunscreen

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experienceI will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.You're not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behindthe race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your lifethe most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversarywhat ever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you candon't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own..

Danceeven if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time it's 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen...

Oh diba? I told you. It's clever, genius and brilliant :D

January 8, 2010

Change of heart I guess


"Big or small, never easily neglect a person's efforts. People get tired. It's not at all times they hold on."

Yes, I definitely agree. Things that are special to you today might not be that special to you tomorrow.

Now what's the point of creating this post. Oh well. It's the same 'rocket' I was talking about in my previous entries.

Yesterday, while I was having the time of my life with my bestfriends at gateway, the person I was talking about texted me. Well, it was after 4 days that person last texted me. Asking me kung kumusta ako.

Funny but I did not feel something special to that person anymore. Like, do you really even care anymore? You made me long for you, then babalik ka na akala mo may babalikan ka pa talaga?

Haha. Stupid me. I shouldn't be saying things like this here. But I can't help but be expressive. I felt bad, now I feel good. Officially, that person is out of my system.

I remember dati, I was waiting for days, I was even crying para lang makausap sya, wondering what that person is doing. Now, it's a change of heart. It's not that I don't really care. I just don't care that much anymore, like kumustahin mo man ako or hindi, it doesn't matter. Really.

Haha. Di ko alam what really happened sa aming dalawa. But it might be God's will that it turned out this way. My bestfriend even coined that person 'chipmunk'.

Out! I fell out of your magic. It wouldn't have happened if you just kept on talking. I understood your silence. Now if I get it wrong, it's too late. The no response was more than I could tolerate, I must end this session :)

Nasasayangan ako, pero wala e. So I'm already gone. Ta-ta!

A day of friendship


Now what better way to spend a Thursday off than with your bestfriends? Haha. We talked, we laughed, and we fooled around a lot! Haha. I never had that much sleep yet that day, pero it was all worth it. Di ako inantok the whole time na magkakasama kami. Well, how often would it happen na makumpleto kaming tatlo? I marked the calendar. It's our friendship day :)

For those who have no idea what I'm taking about, I was with my bestfriends Jace and Jhoker who were both my classmates since first year college. And yeah, my college days won't be the same without them.

So we had coffee, we had world chicken, we sang and we had a lot of fun. Haha. Sana maulit muli ng maraming marami pang beses! Ahaha.

And the master plan, we'll go back to Cavite this coming Mahal na Araw to relax and have fun. More fun than what Jhoker and I had when we went back there. Too bad, Jace missed all the utterances. Bawi ka nalang a.

Tama! :D

January 5, 2010

Clueless

So today, Ampatuan was found not guilty of the murder that took place in Maguindanao. Now who cares, right? Haha. I do. That's one big scandal. Philippines is indeed ruled by crazy men. So unbelievable.

Anyway, here goes my next entry. This is about me, how I really feel inside. I just wanted to vent things out believing that it could at least ease the pain. Ewan ko ba (and my bestfriend Jace knows everything about this).

Listening to Tamia's Almost song, I feel so heartbroken. The song is my song. That's how I feel now. Especially the lyrics in the chorus:

"I miss the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we used to kiss
At least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happen to us, we were almost there
Who ever said it’s impossible to miss
What you never had, never almost had you."

They say that the things that are most unforgettable are those that you never had. True. I had a someone I like so much before, like I did almost everything. And poof, after 2 days, gone.

Now there is this someone that I consider so special. From the first time we met, I felt something. Natatae ako. It's a sign, magiging mahalaga to sa akin.

So we've been text mates. Sometimes, I feel so special with the text messages I'm receiving from that person. Most of the times, not. Haha. Now how ugly would you feel if the whole day on your birthday, he forgot to greet you? And when you're in the verge of depression kasi aalis ka na ng bansa to work abroad, parang wala lang sa kanya? Hay.

I watched the movie "He's just not that into you." I remember one statement there that "If a guy is not calling you for so long, he's just not that into you."

Alam ko naman yun e. Niloloko ko lang yung sarili kong di ko alam. Still hoping na at the end, I'll get a positive response.

I keep on gathering reason not to let go. Pero now, everything's silent. Everything's stagnant. We're not moving. Ay mali, I'm moving away pala. Ayoko man pero, ano gagawin ko?

Minsan pag naiisip ko sya, nasasaktan ako. Kasi I'm thinking, was it worth the sacrifices I did? I remember having to work straight 7 days para lang makasama sya on a saturday night gimik. And at the end, di pala tuloy. Haha.

I was thinking if I was just torpe kasi di ko naman talaga sinasabi sa kanya e. But my actions were loud enough. I don't think clueless parin sya after everything I've done.

Now, I felt rejected. For days, I get no text, no hi's and hellos. Why? Masama ba akong tao? Naging masama ba ako sayo?

With the silence that I am now in, I am on the verge of breaking down. Ayokong mang mag-let go, pero may option ba talaga ako? This isn't normal anymore.

If this isn't love, eh ano to? I wish you know for 5 months sayo umikot mundo ko.

I thought the song that you sent me: There for you by Dontae and Atozzio is mine. Di pala. Haha, ang galing kong mag-feeling. I was so gago.

I wish I could tell you how I'm feeling. Rocket :[

January 4, 2010

Chapter I: The Beginning

I was thinking of reasons on why I began blogging and I came up with these:

1. I guess it's because of the fact that I am a public figure and my life is an open book that I'd love to share to everyone (both friends and strangers).

2. I am abusing this 'freedom of expression' power that I have, haha.

3. Kasi feeling celebrity ako! Haha. It's true. I love all the attention :D

4. I'm just a kid and I need expert advices with things that are ruining my earthly life. Seriously.

Eh kasi naman, di naman ako madaldal na tao sa personal. Medyo stereotyped na akong joker e so people aren't really used to hearing my dramas. Haha. I hate dramas (quote it), but yeah, sometimes dramas in life are essential. That unusual feeling is what makes you human.

And so we begin :D